HER SERIES: The day I lost my baby. The Hannah Colina Story


When I was 17 years old (maybe 18) I heard a song called “Small Bump” by Ed Sheeran.
When the song would come on the radio, I would just change it.  It didn’t resonate with me.

Well, a few weeks ago, someone sent that song to me with the caption “this made me think of you” and I cried silently at my desk at work because for the first time – I finally felt every word of the song.


Did you know that 1 in 4 women will experience miscarriage or pregnancy loss?

Yeah, neither did I – until it happened to me.

On October 12th 2015 I found out I was pregnant. My husband was at work and I was losing my mind. I had never intended on having children. So you can imagine my surprise when I saw those two little pink lines that day. [Insert ugly crying here]

Months went on and while I found myself very excited, I also became concerned at my ability to be a mother. However,  in early 2016 I found a sense of peace in my future. I trusted God in what he had planned for me.

I was finally ready to be a mother.


Let’s fast forward.

February 9th. I was 25 weeks pregnant.

I just got home from a job interview. But something was off. I hadn’t felt the baby move for a while now.

My husband was at work and I was driving myself insane thinking the absolute worst. So I called my doctor and I asked them if I could come in for an emergency ultrasound.

Everything after that is kind of a blur. Almost like it was someone else living that life.

They did an ultrasound and confirmed there was no heartbeat.

They moved me to Labor & Delivery and for the next 30 hours.

I delivered my daughter.


Shortly after, I remember someone telling me that losing a child is hard, but to go on with life is even harder.

Life seemed dull, and there were some days when I really questioned my ability to keep living. I would look my husband straight in his eyes and tell him I was fine, and then later would sit weighing the pros and cons of life.

Then Mother’s day happened.

I woke up with a pit in my stomach and I didn’t even want to be around anybody. Difficult isn’t even the word. However, I decided to use this day to share my experience on my Facebook page.

Then something amazing happened.

 My inbox was flooded with women telling me their stories. I didn’t know how common this horrible thing was, but once I found out I was so comforted knowing that I wasn’t alone. Knowing that there was someone out there who went through this same thing.

Since then, I have been sharing my story with anyone who will listen.

Of course it’s an uncomfortable topic, but it is all too common for us to not talk about. I firmly believe that God put me through that gut-wrenching experience to be a light for other women, and I do not intend on wasting that.

1 in 4 women experience miscarriage or pregnancy loss – that is a statistic that is far too high for such little exposure. So I’m here to expose it.

Let’s start a conversation; it’s up to us to break the silence.

– Hannah Colina


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